I caught suicide. I've been capturing it every time I went on periscope...

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...rising adrenaline, oh no, can't move both from chronic pain & flight or fight? No, I freeze, but I CAN USE MY VOICE.
Periscope also shows the first image & I saw a lot of Neptune, every time so that reminded me, the very cat that was abused was the trigger! Makes sense as he gets better & I truly believe all this happened so I could remove him from an abusive situation since the excuses used were pretty bad, but I had to believe him. I asked 2x, "who's the vet? I have a good one, do you want to take him there?" & was told THE RULE is to never ask twice. When I asked once, or twice, months later, they'd be a response so I learned, ok, takes time. Procrastinator. No, trying to figure out a way to avoid questions.
Why I choose to SQUEEZE since that's how you take a photo so every screenshot is capturing suicide to say "I did something" even if it doesn't seem like much, it is something. A movement & why I believe a simple flick 100x or 100,000x/day is how I say "no to suicide" & get ahead of it since I believe I will always feel that rise of adrenaline since get this, excitement makes ya freeze, too. Why I say "move & groove" a lot to remind me & if there's a dance floor, or a live music event, the safest spaces [with friends that make sure others don't mess with you] and my happy place when asked.
There were a few good moments. Asking that question, I had an answer immediately, "listening to music with my friends unmolested." (that last word was one said to me repeatedly while watching football how many times? When people don't have NEW STORIES to share it's horrifying to me since this was the point---let's give people New Experiences to end their trauma so we're not around it as much. The more work I do with this person or this couple or later after injury, these companies or charities, the less likely they'll dump their trauma (now wondering if it was even real) on me, but also, especially if a healthcare system, the greater impact they'll have on their clients! Learn from me, another patient that said ENOUGH. I'm not NOT SHARING already gone through kids with special needs not receiving a classroom & I survived that. Got to have access to the healthcare system that explained the educational one & it goes on & on & on. Now, let's go back to that question with a bit more detail since I am writing every & all day since NO FEAR & yes, tech is no longer a trigger. I know because I'm posting on X (where the biggest numbers are & where news is truly LIVE*)...& going out to LIVE* shows (theater, concerts, lectures, etc) without being bothered since the focus is on the event, not people."
5 second pause intro. The 5 seconds is the picture associated with this & the visual will be on every YouTube channel in a new PLAYLIST titled. I got to suicide & I want to talk openly to help others since that is my third & final curriculum: I figured it out! I just want to make the greatest impact which is teaching since all day long you make decisions to put others in front of your needs & I don't need anyone to validate what I've done today since you close the classroom door & get an evaluations yearly (except that one year when I didn't get one since the principal walked away & I just know I do not want to be like him). PERIOD.
*Di or ____. Walking but the construction of Dior in Downtown Chicago, I couldn't fill-in-the-blank and what got me LIVE streaming since & noticed in the UK there was a feature where the word LIVE in a red rectangle was in the corner & the picture I was looking at---the camera---was white fluffy sheep in a green field. A horizontal line & white fluffy clouds in a blue sky. I saw the world & how sheep became thoughts (thought bubble) & then... oh wow, I forgot it but it's in instagram : Tappitwlove
I want to say lightbulbs or ideas. It's not on r

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