After Life And Building A Life Worth Remembering With BPD And EMDR A Real Affliction: BPD, Culture, And Stigma podcast

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What is the relationship between BPD and food security? BPD and food insecurity are prevalent among university students, and research shows that poor diets, both in terms of insufficient calories and an overreliance on ultra-processed foods, fuel mood dysregulation, depression, and suicidality. I believe that most universities could do more to support student food security, food sovereignty in the community, and overall mental well-being through food gardens. In this interview, I’ll be speaking with Solara Goldwynn, the farm and food systems lead for a food-growing initiative at Royal Roads University, which is dedicated to sustainability and partnerships with local Indigenous communities. She also explains how gardening can increase resilience. Solara’s food garden business: www.hatchetnseed.ca Community Food Centres Canada: https://cfccanada.ca/en/Home Diane Ackerman, Cultivating Delight: A Natural History of My Garden Richard Dal Monte, “How Does This Garden Grow . . . Community?” https://www.royalroads.ca/news/how-does-garden-grow-community Bonnie Kaplan and Julia J. Rucklidge, “Junk Food and the Brain: How Modern Diets Lacking in Micronutrients May Contribute to Angry Rhetoric: https://theconversation.com/junk-food-and-the-brain-how-modern-diets-lacking-in-micronutrients-may-contribute-to-angry-rhetoric-170863 The Maple Leaf Centre for Food Community: https://www.feedopportunity.com/ Nathan Sing, “The Fight to End Hunger on Canadian University Campuses”: https://education.macleans.ca/feature/the-fight-to-end-hunger-on-canadian-university-campuses/ Sue Stuart-Smith, The Well-Gardened Mind: The Restorative Power of Nature Prudence Vivarini et al., “Borderline Personality Disorder Symptoms in Individuals with Eating Disorder: Association with Severity, Psychological Distress, and Psychosocial Function” Jan Zwicky, Once Upon a Time in the West: Essays on the Politics of Thought and Imagination…

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“We need a society where we don’t step over mentally ill people”: Discussing bioethics with Lucy Yanow 31:00

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Why do people living with mental illness, including BPD, need to think about bioethics? Because ordinary citizens can now make life-and-death decisions for themselves and others. As laws and regulations change around issues such as involuntary hospitalization and medical assistance in dying, it’s important for everyone to read and watch lectures about bioethics to protect themselves, but it’s essential for those of us suffering from mental health issues. In this second part of my interview with Lucy Yanow, who studies bioethics, we talk about this issue as well as the ultimate unattainability of bodily autonomy. Trigger warning: This episode will discuss suicide and euthanasia. If you are having thoughts of suicide, call or text 988 to reach the 988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline or go to SpeakingOfSuicide.com/ resources for a list of additional resources. Raven Belasco, editor, Adventures in Bodily Autonomy: Exploring Reproductive Rights in Science Fiction, Fantasy, and Horror María Puig de la Bellacasa, Matters of Care: Speculative Ethics in More Than Human Worlds Rosi Braidotti, Posthuman Feminism Judith Butler, The Force of Nonviolence: An Ethico-Political Bind Canada’s 2020 report on the estimated cost benefits of MAID Donna Haraway, Staying with the Trouble: Making Kin in the Chthulucene Chelsea Kamp, “Manitoba Woman Devastated over Delay in MAID for Mental Illness”: https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/manitoba/maid-manitoba-mental-illness-1.7104343 Sophie Lewis, Full Surrogacy Now: Feminism Against Family Mallory Moench, “‘A Ticket to Nowhere’: Thousands Are Brought to S.F. Hospitals Involuntarily. Then What Happens?”: https://www.sfchronicle.com/sf/article/mental-illness-san-francisco-hospitals-homeless-17772797.php Gayatri Chakravorty Spivak, “Ghostwriting.” Diacritics, Vol. 25, No. 2, 1995.…

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Complex trauma is in our house now: Courtenay Stallings, author of Laura’s Ghost: Women Speak About Twin Peaks 42:09

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Why is Laura Palmer a heroine for many of us? Because David Lynch's depiction of her in the Twin Peaks franchise was one of the first and remains one of the most powerful depictions of complex trauma from child sexual abuse. In this interview with professor and writer Courtenay Stallings, we talk about her wonderful book, Laura’s Ghost: Women Speak About Twin Peaks, and how the late, great Lynch catalyzed discussions of the long-neglected topic of abuse -- with which, unfortunately, so many of us with BPD are familiar. Trigger warning for child sexual abuse. Courtenay Stalling’s Laura’s Ghost: Women Speak about Twin Peaks: https://www.tuckerdspress.com/product-page/laura-s-ghost Courtenay Stallings, " Twin Peaks: The Return as Subversive Fairy Tale." Supernatural Studies , vol. 5, no. 2, 2019, pp. 98-116. Julian D. Ford and Christine A. Courtois, “Complex PTSD and Borderline Personality Disorder”: https://bpded.biomedcentral.com/articles/10.1186/s40479-021-00155-9 Sigmund Freud’s on the uncanny: https://web.mit.edu/allanmc/www/freud1.pdf Cynthia Gralla, “A Woman in Trouble: My Life and Illnesses Filtered through Twin Peaks ”: https://witness.blackmountaininstitute.org/issues-4-2/spring-2021/ David Lynch, dir., Twin Peaks, Twin Peaks: Fire Walk with Me, and The Return Bessel van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score Vladimir Nabokov, Lolita…

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“I thought that mental health problems were something that you caught while young”: Lucy Yanow 27:59

πριν 7 weeks27:59

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Can recreational drugs be used to treat BPD in controlled environments? In this interview, I talk with Lucy Yanow, who holds a master’s degree in Bioethics and Society and formerly worked as a midwife, doula, and protector of reproductive rights. I ask her about her experience taking ketamine pills for depression and suicidality, but our conversation detours in rich and surprising ways. Lucy opens up about how her family’s history of suicide has affected her. She thoughtfully reflects on intergenerational trauma, the limitations she sees in talk therapy, and weighing the risks of drug therapy against suicidality. Trigger warning: This episode discusses suicide. If you are having thoughts of suicide, call or text 988 to reach the 988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline or go to SpeakingOfSuicide.com/ resources for a list of additional resources : Chittaranjan Andrade, “Ketamine for Depression—Knowns, Unknowns, Possibilities, Barriers, and Opportunities” Sarah K. Fineberg et al., “A Pilot Randomized Controlled Trial of Ketamine in Borderline Personality Disorder” Mark Fisher, Capitalist Realism: Is There No Alternative? Charlotte Perkins Gilman, “The Yellow Wallpaper” and Herland Thomas Vanicek et al., “Intravenous Esketamine Leads to an Increase in Impulsive and Suicidal Behaviour in a Patient with Recurrent Major Depression and Borderline Personality Disorder”…

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The book that saves lives: Mishell Baker’s Borderline 44:26

πριν 9 weeks44:26

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How can an urban fantasy novel save lives? By depicting a protagonist with BPD who is resourceful, loyal, and heroic. In Borderline, the first book in the Arcadia Project trilogy, author and BPD survivor Mishell Baker does just that. In this interview, her perspectives on her books and her life reveal a woman who has found strength and inner peace after agony. As she says to me, “If you die by your own hand, you don't know if your work was done.” Trigger warning: This episode discusses suicide. If you are having thoughts of suicide, call or text 988 to reach the 988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline or go to SpeakingOfSuicide.com/ resources for a list of additional resources : Mishell Baker, Borderline Mishell Baker, Phantom Pains Mishell Baker, Imposter Syndrome Charlaine Harris, The Southern Vampire Mysteries Vladimir Nabokov, Pale Fire Seo-Young J. Chu, Do Metaphors Dream of Literal Sleep? A Science-Fictional Theory of Representation…

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“People with BPD are not a different kind of person”: Dr. Alexander Kriss, author of Borderline 42:10

πριν 11 weeks42:10

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What can a psychoanalyst learn from patients with BPD? In this interview, Dr. Alexander Kriss, author of the recently published Borderline: Biography of a Personality Disorder, shares insights gained from treating patients with the disorder. We discuss his book, which tells the story of one patient’s recovery while also deconstructing the BPD diagnosis and the broader conceptions of madness and femininity that have created an ever-shifting but ever-present space for people harrying the line between neurosis and psychosis from antiquity to the present day. Alexander Kriss, Borderline: The Biography of a Personality Disorder Alexander Kriss, The Gaming Mind: A New Psychology of Videogames and the Power of Play Link to Alexander Kriss’s New York-based psychotherapy practice Alicia Elliott, “A Mind Spread Out on the Ground” Sigmund Freud, A Case of Hysteria (Dora) and Three Case Histories Edvard Munch, The Scream…

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“It's Upon Us to Widen That Lens”: Dr. Merri Lisa Johnson, author of Girl in Need of a Tourniquet 41:01

πριν 13 weeks41:01

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Why should we draw on the field of disability studies to envision, treat, and talk about BPD? In this second and final part of my interview with Professor Lisa Johnson, author of Girl in Need of a Tourniquet: Memoir of a Borderline Personality, we explore this question and others, including the connection between BPD and sexuality, why we might diagnose fictional characters with BPD, and the form of her memoir, which “sutured together many types of discourse (medical texts, self-help books, fairy-tale, personal email, autobiographical memory).” Merri Lisa Johnson, Girl in Need of a Tourniquet Merri Lisa Johnson (editor), Jane Sexes It Up: True Confessions of Feminist Desire Merri Lisa Jonson and Robert McRuer. "Cripistemologies: Introduction." Merri Lisa Johnson and Robert McRuer, “Cripistemologies Now (More Than Ever!)” Alyson E. Blanchard et al., “Testing the Hot-Crazy Matrix: Borderline Personality Traits in Attractive Women and Wealthy Low Attractive Men Are Relatively Favoured by the Opposite Sex” Baby Reindeer TV series Beyoncé, “Hold Up” Anne Boyer, The Undying William Faulkner, As I Lay Dying Daphne Gottlieb, Final Girl Herman Melville, “Bartleby the Scrivener” Jonathan Metzel, The Protest Psychosis: How Schizophrenia Became a Black Disease Sarah Redikopp, “Interrogating Nonsuicidal Self-Injury Disorder Through a Feminist Psychiatric Disability Theory Framework” Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation…

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After Life and building a life worth remembering with BPD and EMDR 18:51

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Would you choose to hold on to a bad memory for eternity? In this bonus episode, I explain how EMDR therapy and a rewatch of the glorious Japanese film, After Life , made me reflect on memory. Hirokazu Kore-eda, director, After Life (1998 film) American Psychiatric Association. (2013). Diagnostic and statistical manual of mental disorders (5th ed.) Anne Carson, Economy of the Unlost Marsha Linehan, Building a Life Worth Living Viet Thanh Nguyen, “In Memoriam” Bessel van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma…

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“A Vulnerability Artist Who Fights Ableism”: Dr. Merri Lisa Johnson on BPD 47:00

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What does writing from the frontline of BPD look like? If the author is borderline up-ender Dr. Lisa Johnson, it looks and sounds like a witty, raw, and dazzling conflagration. In this interview, she and I discuss her memoir, Girl in Need of a Tourniquet: Memoir of a Borderline Personality, and share our experiences of navigating academia while being open about our BPD diagnoses. Merri Lisa Johnson, Girl in Need of a Tourniquet Merri Lisa Johnson, “Neuroqueer Feminism: Turning with Tenderness toward Borderline Personality Disorder” Courtney Cook, The Way She Feels: My Life on the Borderline in Pictures and Pieces bell hooks, All About Love and other books William Faulkner, As I Lay Dying Marsha Linehan, Building a Life Worth Living Audre Lorde, "The Transformation of Silence into Language and Action" Nancy Mairs, Remembering the Bone House José Esteban Muñoz, Disidentifications: Queers of Color and the Performance of Politics Stacy Pershall, Loud in the House of Myself: Memoir of a Strange Girl Kiera van Gelder, The Buddha and the Borderline Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation…

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Movement therapy for BPD with psychotherapist Ellis Amdur 20:44

πριν 18 weeks20:44

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Can movement therapy support people with BPD? In this interview, psychotherapist, licensed martial artist, and acclaimed writer Ellis Amdur describes his success with teaching baduanjin qigong, a Chinese breathing and movement system, to a patient suffering from acute BPD. If you are having thoughts of suicide, call or text 988 to reach the 988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline or go to SpeakingOfSuicide.com/ resources for a list of additional resources : Links to Ellis Amdur’ books Cynthia Gralla, “Double Bind: How Borderline Personality Disorder Tied Me in Knots” published by SLICE in their May 2022 Levity online issue Bessel van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score…

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“There is no final destination for a human being”: Psychotherapist Ellis Amdur 31:25

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How do therapists come to think of BPD after a long career? In this conversation with Ellis Amdur—a retired psychotherapist, award-winning writer, and licensed martial artist—he offers his perspective on BPD, including what a background in Jungian psychology taught him about our singular and ever-evolving journeys. Trigger warning: This episode mentions suicide. If you are having thoughts of suicide, call or text 988 to reach the 988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline or go to SpeakingOfSuicide.com/ resources for a list of additional resources : Links to Ellis Amdur’ books Patricia Barry, Echo’s Subtle Body: Contributions to an Archetypal Psychology Victor Frankl, Man’s Search for Meaning James Hillman, The Dream and the Underworld Reiner Stach, Is That Kafka? 99 Finds Weird Studies podcast, On James Hillman’s “The Dream and the Underworld”…

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“He was provoking all these symptoms he had wanted to cure”: Nina Shope, author of Asylum 35:00

πριν 22 weeks35:00

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How have power dynamics between doctors and patients changed over the past century and a half? In my second and final interview with Nina Shope, author of the award-winning historical novel Asylum , we talk about the complicated relationship between neurologist Jean-Martin Charcot and his most famous patient as he treated her for hysteria and documented her in photographs during the 1870s. Nina reflects on the photograph of Augustine that she chose to include in her novel, how she avoided flattening historical figures or reducing Augustine to past trauma, and the mythological roots in both the history of female madness and Charcot’s photography. Nina Shope, Asylum Nina Shope, “Changeling.” Conjunctions, Vol. 81 (“Numina: The Enchantment Issue), Fall 2023 Roland Barthes, Camera Lucida Maud Casey, The City of Incurable Women Georges Didi-Huberman, Invention of Hysteria: Charcot and the Photographic Iconography of the Salpêtrière Euripides, The Bacchae Saidiya Hartman, Wayward Lives, Beautiful Experiments Susan Sontag, On Photography Selby Wynn Schwartz, After Sappho Emily Wells, A Matter of Appearance…

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“I was fascinated with showing the things behind hysteria that were being erased”: Nina Shope on Asylum 25:45

πριν 24 weeks25:45

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What did BPD look like in the 19th century? It looked like hysteria, a phenomenon that puzzled doctors and fascinated the public. In this episode, I interview Nina Shope, author of the award-winning historical novel Asylum , which explores the power dynamics between Jean-Martin Charcot, the father of neurology as we know it today, and his most famous patient. In the shadows of this dynamic, we find symptoms and conceptualizations of female illness familiar to those of us who experience or study BPD today. Nina Shope, Asylum Christopher Bollas, Hysteria Georges Didi-Huberman, Invention of Hysteria: Charcot and the Photographic Iconography of the Salpêtrière Sarah Shun-lien, Madeleine Is Sleeping Elaine Showalter, The Female Malady…

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"Insurance companies are breaking the law": Paula Tusiani-Eng of Emotions Matter 25:18

πριν 26 weeks25:18

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How can we access expensive care? In the US, being diagnosed with BPD is often the first step in an odyssey through a complex and unjust health care system. In the second part of my interview with Paula Tusiani-Eng, co-founder of Emotions Matter, she discusses how to get life-saving coverage from your insurer, the wonderful success of her organization's peer support groups, the wild creativity that many of us with BPD have, and why we need an intersectional approach to treating and supporting BPD. Resources for this episode: If you are having thoughts of suicide, call or text 988 to reach the 988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline or go to SpeakingOfSuicide.com/ resources for a list of additional resources : Emotions Matter website Bea Tusiani, Pamela Tusiani, and Paula Tusiani-Eng, Remnants of a Life on Paper: A Mother and Daughter’s Struggle with Borderline Personality Disorder Frank Yeomans, Paula Tusiani-Eng, and Kellyanne Navarre, “California Approves Law Granting Pretrial Diversion for BPD”…

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What I wish I’d known about getting a PhD with BPD 14:45

πριν 28 weeks14:45