017: My Sex Demon

Navigating Career Change with ZakkeeAhmad

(Recorded Jan 14, 2020) This episode is easily the most vulnerable I've been on social media and outwardly in general. "My Sex Demon" was the biggest contributor to my early days of depression many years ago. I struggled a LOT (& still do in some ways) with my previous perceptions of sex: what it meant to me, to those around me, to society, and to my life! My perceptions were shaken, and, as a "Mediator" personality type who is guided by their virtues and principles, this was a very big deal because it was something that I considered so special and so important. Today, I can look back and say with confidence that these experiences have shaped who I am in a very positive way. I am empowered because this insecurity, this fear, this nemesis no longer controls me. I know that I have the ability to control it and one of the ways that I am is sharing it's story with you: from my new & empowered perspective. I won't lie, it still makes me feel insecure and uncomfortably vulnerable at times (hell, I recorded this 4 months ago & didnt bring myself to post it!), BUT I also know that it has the ability to empower others as well with the things that they go through. People going through things can get berated with positivity that just might not work (it didnt for me - I kept waiting for something or someone to come fix it all and make it go away). While I do believe that everyone has the ability to overcome, I won't sugarcoat it: I believe it starts with a decision. And no one else can make it for you. You have to decide that you will win & that you will take it upon yourself to overcome. "Lord we know who we are, yet we know not what we may be" --Hamlet