navigating through a raw moment of existential dread - SOC

the friend I needed

[ep 1] content warning: passive suicidal ideation, suicide. SOC=stream of conciousness episode. okay...I'm gonna set out to do what I told myself I was gonna do which is be completely open and transparent here. The reason I don't want to be right now is because I don't wanna send anyone down a rabbit hole or to get in their head. But, I think that if I were on the other end and I had spiraled about a topic...it would be nice to hear someone talk about this exact same topic. I don't think anyone is gonna spiral. I'm not in a crazy headspace, but I am a little anxious. I think talking about it out loud will 1. feel good and 2. I think I will find some clarity. I don't think that people always need to hear advice; I think that hearing someone experiencing something similar to you is enough. A common topic came up tonight related to existentialism and depression. I want to read something I wrote while I ate dinner about existential dread, some rhetorical questions I posed, and more. Then after, I want to elaborate on parts I wrote and afterthoughts I had...plus find some place of peace through it all. Listen to me talk to myself through this moment of disconcertment. DM me your thoughts on instagram @thefriendIneeded ! also share with a friend that might be struggling with the topics discussed in today’s episode. let them feel heard!!